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02 November 2016 @ 12:44 am
STFU  
This my first entry as a 31 year old adult addicted to pain medication and alcohol and also great things like work ect.. I have an addictive personality period. I suppose this will be my outlet day to day as I live. I've been using this probably before that motherfucker who created Facebook was using this so I figure why not go back. It's more convenient to type out my feelings or thoughts than to write that shit down so here I am. I just called out of work today because my stomach felt fucked up because I drink and take pills too much. Tomorrow will be my first day back to work with no prescription pills at all. Work is way smoother and nice on medication obviously. I've done this before but not for a long period of time which I'm going to have to do for the next 2-3 weeks as all medication has ran out. I also drink every single night after work. I don't get wasted drunk or anything, just enough to relax as I find being sober sucks ass.. I am pledging to myself to change my ways and here will be my outlet day to day. So be it. I suppose I want this documented as I start to TRY and change my life around. My job and my Mother are the best things in my life at the moment and I could destroy either relationship easily if I continue living this way. The trial starts here.